As I reflect on this past school year, it feels good to finally relax and not be on such a rigorous schedule. It feels good to let the kids sleep in and play all day.
But I already miss the mornings with my 6 yr old on my lap, looking at me with those big blue eyes, trying his best to sound out words or sitting at the table with him, giving him all my attention as we learn a new math lesson together. I never knew how much he enjoyed math until now.
I wasn't the type of mother who ever wanted to homeschool. I never imagined I would have the patience, time or knowledge to be good at it. Now, I don't just enjoy spending this one on one time with my son, I genuinely love it. It took me a while to get to this point, lots of tears, lots of frustration and lots of feelings of incompetence.
With prayer and humbleness, I evaluated myself and changed what needed to be changed (mostly my attitude). I still have a long way to go but I am grateful for the many mothers who gave me advice throughout this year.
I asked my son how I did teaching him this year. His answer was, "great, mom, you're the best". Hearing those words was my confirmation that this is the correct path for our lives.
When you were planning on having children, did you ever think that you would have to explain to them what is going on in America right now? How do you think we got here?
I am coming to the sad realization that both public and private schools are nothing more than liberal indoctrination camps that are attempting to steal the very hearts, souls and MINDS of our children. If parents don't step up now, there will be no hope for our children or for the future of America.
I started this blog in November, after my son was kicked out of school. Little did I know that by March I would be homeschooling my 2 girls as well. God has given me the strength to do something I never thought I could do. I never planned on homeschooling but now that I know what NYS is capable of doing, I will homeschool all of my children. The mandates will become worse. This state wants more and more control of our children. I also added a story of a girl who had a horrible, life changing experience due to the gardisil vaccine. Please take your time and read it, as the gardisil shot may be mandated soon in NY for boys and girls as young as 9. I believe, though I may be wrong, that the flu shot will be mandated this September to all school children. If you know someone who had a reaction to the flu shot, please share, as I would like to add it to my blog.
I would like to think that every one who has read my story would agree that what happened to my son was unjust and discriminatory. I'll just remind everyone, my son became extremely ill for 4 weeks after receiving vaccinations. He then was kicked out of school due to the tyranny in the NYS government.
So I was forced to homeschool. Now, surprisingly, there has been a revision made to a written bill in NY. The bill is A3272, it can be found on NYSsenate.gov.
This bill is written to "provide enforcement mechanism for non-public school educational standards". It also states "all students attending a non-public school shall be given instruction that is substantially equivalent to the instruction that is given in the district which the school is located". So this bill, written by a democrat, with democratic co-sponsors, was recently updated to add the word "homeschool". Previously, this bill only related to private schools. The bill states that the commissioner (whoever that is) may conduct unannounced school visits at the non-public school to observe instruction.
According to NYSED.gov, in 2019, in grades 3-8 only 45% of students are proficient in ELA and only 46.7% are proficient in math. Can I ask what is happening to the other half of NY's children? With all the funding that NY schools receive, thanks to the tax payers, why are half of our children failing? Why do private schools and home-schools need to be equivalent to this failing system?
Only months after the religious exemption was removed- NY lawmakers decided to make home-schooling more difficult. Would I be wrong to say that their goal is to take away a parents right to choose what is best for their own child?
I was forced to homeschool my son by the radical NYS government, but I would like to thank them because I am now convinced that home-schooling is the best kept secret.
What is happening in NYS is the definition of socialism, and socialism, my friends, is just a nice word for communism. If you are not sure what communism is, research the country of Venezuela.
After 2 weeks of Christmas vacation, we had to bring my daughters back to school today. This was the conversation we had after dropping them off.
Me: Do you miss going to school?
My son: Yes, I miss my friends and there was a really cool book there about animals
Me: Do you want to go back to school next year?
My son: Yes, if the law changes
Me: Dad and I are so proud of you, you are so strong
My son: I wasn't strong when I got those shots, I was so weak, I couldn't even walk.
Do you really think that my son doesn't deserve to be in school? Do you really believe he is a threat to the health of everyone else? Did I mention, that 2 weeks ago, the school district that he was kicked out of, the school district that has no exemptions to vaccines- had an outbreak of the mumps?
Does anyone want to open their eyes and see the truth in this? Are we going to continue being quiet and let discrimination continue in our country? If you had the chance to change this, would you?
So I wanted to let everyone know that the below story is not my story. Camryn is a sister of a friend of mine. It seems that everyone knows someone who has been affected (in some way) by a vaccine.
Please scroll to the bottom to read my whole story. I have been homeschooling my son now for a little over 2 months. It was a very scary situation at first, but after consulting with other moms and changing my attitude, homeschooling is becoming an amazing journey. Watching my son learn and grow is a truly wonderful experience.
Knowledge is power. Please do your own research in regards to vaccines. Do you know how much money the owners of the pharmaceutical companies make? Do you know that- with your tax dollars- you pay for 90% of the vaccines in America? Do you know that American children receive the most vaccines out of every country? Do you know that America has the sickest kids??
A great website I found is learntherisk.org
It was the start of Camryn’s freshman year in high school and I couldn’t help but notice how completely and utterly drained she was every single day, even after frequent daily naps. She had always been a very active child who was involved in numerous activities and athletic teams, not to mention the kid had more of a social life than I ever did! Even the simplest of tasks, and the easiest of days began to show extra strain and exhaustion on her.
She began coming home from school and sleeping until she had soccer practice. She would wake up just long enough to make it through her practice and then come home and go back to sleep until dinner time, where she would be up just long enough to force herself to sit up and eat her dinner, and then she would drag herself upstairs and go right to bed for the night. No amount of sleeping seemed to give her any kind of relief from her sheer exhaustion. It was heartbreaking to watch and even more gut wrenching that nobody seemed to know what was happening to her... or why. All I knew is that her entire world had been turned upside down.
Cam had received her 2nd Gardasil shot the week prior to when all of her symptoms began, and in the back of my mind i knew there must be a correlation. I spoke with her pediatrician about it and he advised that it was most likely just normal teenage behavior or perhaps she was a little depressed. My gut feeling was immediately dismissed. I knew in my heart that something had gone very wrong for our girl. This was not “normal” behavior for her and my heart broke for the happy go lucky girl she once was.
We started to see her alienate herself from her friends and she seemed to only be comfortable in our home, or when with her immediate family. Our once overly confident adolescent was turning into an isolated angry, extremely irritable and moody teenager who never laughed or seemed to enjoy herself any longer and it felt as though she were slipping right through our hands. As a mother, I simply wouldn’t stop fighting for our daughter until I got to the bottom of what was going on inside of her body.
I started pushing her pediatrician to do more in-depth testing on her and so he sent her for blood work and an EKG, among many other specialist appointments, and we even made an appointment with a psychologist to have her tested for attention deficit disorder, even though she has always been an outstanding student and her grades never slipped through all of this. I knew that this was not what she had.... but still, I diligently and dutifully brought her to all of her numerous appointments and became more and more frustrated as the answers all came back the same... everything looked “normal”, and yet day by day, our daughter slipped further and further away from us.
By early November 2014 she started complaining that she felt really “weird” when she would laugh. She said she couldn’t really put her finger on it other than to say she felt very weak whenever she would laugh with her friends. I didn’t really know what to do with this information and when I told her pediatrician about it, he laughed and said well... I guess you shouldn’t make her laugh anymore them.
In December of that year, I finally got to witness firsthand what it looks like when the weakness came on when she laughed. I was sitting at my computer and we both began laughing, and suddenly she collapsed to the floor. It was at that moment that I made a vow to myself to keep on pushing until we found out what was wrong with her. I didn’t admit it to her at the time, but I was scared beyond belief of what we may be dealing with.
I decided to keep the appointment with the psychologist, which was about two weeks after her first collapse, even though I knew whatever was going on with her was not psychological. I was desperate, and willing to try anything or talk to anyone at that point. We just needed someone to listen. The psychologist confirmed what we already knew and advised us that she did not have ADD. Right before we were about to leave, I had described to the psychologist what I had witnessed a couple of weeks prior with her collapse when she was laughing with me at home. That was the first time in my life that I had ever heard the word “cataplexy”.
She explained that cataplexy is almost always only present in somebody who has narcolepsy, and that we should get her evaluated as soon as possible with a neurologist. I made the appointment that day and in the weeks that passed while we waited for the appointment I made it my mission to educate myself on narcolepsy with cataplexy. I couldn’t believe it had taken us so long to finally have a lead in the right direction. It seemed so obvious after reading about the disease that this was what she had, and yet all of the providers that we had worked with had missed it.
During our consultation with her neurologist, he agreed that she most likely had narcolepsy with cataplexy and advised it would be confirmed through a sleep study. He immediately started her on a stimulant to help with her extreme daytime sleepiness. Although this helped, it was not the solution that we were looking for. Her collapses continued, which meant there was very little fun or laughter in our home. Our entire family had to walk on eggshells in front of Camryn because the stimulant made her so irritable as soon as it wore off, which was typically around dinner time.
We finally had our appointment for her sleep study to confirm the diagnosis, and by that time it was not a shock when it came back that she did indeed have narcolepsy with cataplexy. Although I was pretty sure the diagnosis would be confirmed, hearing it sent me through a whirlwind of emotions. What did this mean for our daughters future? Would she ever be able to play sports again? Would she be able to drive...to hold down a job... to have children? It was a grieving process and I needed to learn to let go of the hopes and dreams I once had for our daughter, and start living one day at a time and only focusing on getting her the help she needed, with the right medications. She went through a myriad of medicine combinations, none of which seemed to do much for her except to put a Band-Aid on her sleepiness. Her collapses became more and more frequent in nature and as time went on they were definitely starting to affect her day today activities. During her spring soccer league going into her sophomore year she could barely play 4 to 5 minutes on the field, and then she would come off and collapse. I lived in constant fear that she would collapse on the field, or basketball court. It was heartbreaking to watch as a parent and I knew that something more had to be done... I just wasn’t sure who to turn to or what to do at that point. It was about that time when a mutual friend reached out to us via Facebook and told us about Dr. Emanuel Mignot through Stanford university in California. He told us that if he were to give us a piece of advice as a fellow parents of a child with narcolepsy, that he would recommend our family reach out to Stanford and set up an appointment to meet with Dr. Mignot. He advised that he may be able to prescribe a medication that could help our daughter, as it had helped his own.
It was all I needed to hear. It didn’t matter how much it cost or what we had to give up... we would do anything to give our daughter her life back. I made the call and her appointment was scheduled for September, which seemed a world away. Waiting it out seemed to take forever, while her symptoms seemed to be getting worse. I began to believe that she would never be able to truly participate in sports in the way that she once had. Even though I educated her coaches, some never truly understood what this disease did to her and continued to put the same high expectations on her as they had before her symptoms started. It was hard to watch her struggle to be the same player she once was when her body just physically could not keep up.
When the day finally came to board the plane to head to California, we had a great support system with us. Her grandmother, her aunt, and myself all flew out in the hopes of getting our girl better. Her cataplexy was worse than ever while we were there, but we remained optimistic. Dr Mignot lived up to our expectations. He spent over an hour with Camryn, answered all of our questions (and I had a journal FULL of questions), and then we spent an additional 2 hours with his research assistant (who also had narcolepsy... for the past 20 years). We left with a new, somewhat controversial prescription... and returned home with a renewed sense of hope for her future. Dr Mignot advises that most likely what had happened is that Camryn’s immune system was compromised when she received the 2nd dose of Gardasil (she had previously had mono and most likely wasn’t at 100% when she received the immunization). As fate would have it, Camryn is a carrier of the narcolepsy gene (we had her tested prior to our trip to CA). This means that unfortunately for her... all the stars were aligned that fateful day i decided to go ahead with the Gardasil vaccine. Had i known ANY of this- i would have refused. Her immune system was down, she was a carrier of the narcolepsy gene... and when she received the Gardasil injection, her own body began attacking the hypocretin in her body- making it non-existent... and this, bringing on her narcolepsy/cataplexy full force. Our family has absolutely NO HISTORY of any type of cervical cancer. As a mother, I will never forgive myself for making the decision to follow our pediatricians recommendation to give our daughter the Gardasil vaccine. We will never give it to her younger sister as we do not know if she is a carrier of the narcolepsy gene. Also of note- on 8/4/16, I made a formal report to the Vaccine Adverse Event Reporting System in regards to what the vaccine has robbed our daughter of. The decision on whether or not to give the Gardasil vaccine to a child is a very personal one. It is one that the government should absolutely NOT be a part of. Unless, of course they want to take responsibility of unforeseen trauma that the vaccine brings.
Throughout the entire process, I felt that educating her coaches, teachers, friends, and family on what narcolepsy with cataplexy was, and what it did to her was of the utmost importance. I never wanted her to be... or feel... misunderstood. We were lucky to have such an amazing school district to work with. They worked with us on an appropriate 504 plan that allowed for anything she may need to be successful in high school.
The next three years each showed a marked improvement in her health and functioning. She was the captain of the varsity basketball team in her junior and senior years, and was most improved on her varsity soccer team in her junior year. In her senior year of high school, Camryn won numerous awards including the Dick Gray Profiles in Courage Award as well as the Perseverance Award for her high school. She also made first team WAC for basketball, as well as breaking a school record for hitting seven 3 pointers in a single game. She also managed to make to section 2 records of seven or more three-pointers in a single game and also 40 or more three-pointers in a single season. Her overall GPA in HS was a 94.8.... simply phenomenal considering just a few years before she was falling asleep in nearly every class, couldn’t focus on her studies, and was getting absolutely no sleep at night. I can’t say enough for the hard work and dedication that this kid has put in. She earned everything that she has received.
She is a success story, but that does not mean every single day isn’t still a struggle for her. Because of the Gardasil vaccine, our daughter will have to be on 3 very strong medications for the rest of her life... and will still only perform at 70% of her potential. I ask you.... was it worth it? If even one child is robbed of their future- is it worth the cost?!
My sons doctor was fully aware of the illness that consumed my son after he received those shots. He was in agreement with me that more shots would be detrimental to his health.
He filled out the required NYS medical exemption form.
The principal of the school said that she needed approval from the superintendent. Well, he said no.
I called him to question why he denied a valid medical exemption. His exact words were, "Oh don't ask me any medical questions, I can't even take my own temperature".
"So you decided to go against what my doctor said?", I asked. His reply, "I am following NYS guidelines, not one child in our district has an exemption and I am going to keep it that way".
Just like that, my son was kicked out of school.
Let me repeat this, government officials with no medical background are allowed to override a doctors decision.
This is happening all over the country. My heart goes out to all the families who are going through this, my heart goes out to all the children who can't understand why they aren't allowed in school. My heart goes out to the families who need to figure out how to homeschool.
I attempted to give my son the vaccines against everything I believe.
I previously had a religious exemption against vaccines, until the NYS government ended that in June 2019.
If you haven't judged me yet, here is your chance. I hold a sincere religious belief concerning vaccines. I believe that God made our bodies in his image. I don't believe that God wants us to inject our bodies with toxins in an attempt to avoid disease. I believe that abortion is wrong and therefore do not feel that I should play a part in the use of aborted fetal cells. But in NYS, I am no longer allowed to believe these things.
I had to make a choice for my son, I had to decide what was best for my son. I had 2 choices.
Take him out of school, a place he knew, a place he was comfortable, a place where his friends and sister were, somehow figure out how to homeschool and continue to work, all because I don't like vaccines.
Put my beliefs aside and give him those vaccines so he could stay in a place he knew, where he could continue to grow emotionally, socially and academically.
Well, I decided to put my beliefs aside. But as we all know, that didn't really work out for me.
My son became extremely ill after receiving vaccines.
"Shut up and get your shots."
There were hundreds of cases of measles in NYC not thousands and not one person died, is this really considered a medical emergency?
"Shut up and get your shots."
Does my newborn really need to get the Hep B vaccine at birth, isn't hepatitis B an STD, how is my infant at risk for that?
"Shut up and get your shots."
There were 80,000 cases of autism last year, what do the professionals say about that?
"The reason for autism is unknown, but professionals do admit that it has something to do with the toxins in the air, food and water."
Oh, speaking of toxins, what are the ingredients in the vaccines that you are injecting my child with?
"Shut up and get your shots."
So the toxins in the air, food and water could have a negative effect on my child but the toxins injected through a vaccine can't?
"Shut up and get your shots."
But on the ingredient list of the vaccine insert, it says "human diploid cells", I googled that and it says those are from an aborted fetus, I am against abortion, oh and I am also against injected my child with another humans DNA.
"Shut up and get your shots."
Isn't chicken pox a pretty mild illness, can't my children just get the infection (like I did) instead of the vaccine?
"Shut up and get your shots."
okay, one more....
The government officials who mandate these vaccines have no medical background and are just getting endorsed by the pharmaceutical companies to push vaccines, right?
Oh I guess I'll just shut up, you're right, I should just do whatever the multi-billion dollar pharmaceutical companies say. The same companies that knowingly got millions of Americans addicted to narcotics just to increase their own wealth. THEY MUST KNOW WHAT THEY'RE DOING.
For weeks, my son suffered.
For weeks, unimaginable thoughts were running through my head.
For weeks, we never knew when a meltdown might occur.
I fed my son food that would cleanse his body and had him on a vitamin regimen. Daily he was taking (and still continues to take), probiotics, vitamin C, Omega 3 and apple cider vinegar. Apple cider vinegar is known for its detoxifying power. We used gummy’s (use promo code STAR5 at goli.com for a discount).
He received multiple chiropractic adjustments that helped realign his nervous system.
Every night, I massaged my son with essential oils to help him detoxify.
And most importantly, I prayed and prayed.
Well, 4 weeks after those dreadful shots, my son was finally healing, getting back to himself more and more everyday. My tension and anxiety started to decrease.
Then, the phone call came. School nurse: your son needs more shots or he cannot come to school.
What would you do?
My son soon became extremely emotional. He started talking and singing to himself, making repetitive sounds, looking out the car window with a blank stare at nothing and flapping his hands. This is the hardest part for me to write, this is the part I don't want to admit.
My sweet little boy became unable to control his emotions. He became very angry and had meltdown after meltdown. He told me "mommy, I don't know if I'm hungry, if I'm tired or if I'm thirsty", crying and crying. He wouldn't do school work or get dressed in the morning, it became almost impossible to get him into the bath. He complained of excruciating headaches for 4 weeks straight. In his previous 6 years of life, he never once had a headache.
I know that these shots did something to my son.
I AM his mother and I know him best. I was put on this earth to care for my children. I was given an instinctual ability to know how to care for my children.
I don't think we need to judge the millions of mothers who are convinced that after receiving a vaccine, their child changed.
In a country where tolerance is preached, I don't think we should judge parents who choose not to vaccinate. That's too bad for us though, because everyone else thinks its okay to judge us.